ACTF--This Won't Be Weird

Hi, my name is Jeremy.

Knock Knock.

I was alone in my room after a lackluster scene performance during the day while my partner--Cal--was out carousing with some BC students at a bar that's either called "Buckey's" or "Lucky's."

I can't remember which.

People have different ways of dealing with disappointment.

Knock Knock.

I opened the door expecting to find a drunken Cal, but instead I got--

BILLY: Hi.

Oh boy.

BILLY: I have a favor to ask.
ME: Yes.
BILLY: Shouldn't you let me ask first.
ME: Good idea.
BILLY: Obviously, things are a little weird with Ben being here and all, and so I can't really stay in my--
ME: Stay here.
BILLY: Really?
ME: Cal's out drinking. I doubt he'll be coming back to the room. You can have his bed.
BILLY: Amazing, thanks.

Although I was more than glad to help, another part of me thought--

You're not entirely over him yet. This might not be the best--

BILLY: Do you mind if I take a shower?
ME: No, go ahead.

Oh God.
Oh God.
Oh God.

STOP!

BILLY: Do you want to come?
ME: Pardon?
BILLY: I said I'm going to get a soda first. Do you want to come?
ME: Oh, no thanks.

He must have asked that while I was Oh God-ing.

When he came back, I tried to play it cool. I sat on the bed watching the Discovery Channel.

BILLY: You enjoy mating?
ME: Huh?
BILLY: You're watching giraffes go at it.
ME: Oh, am I? OH GOD!

I turned off the television.

So much for looking cool.

We both stayed up talking for a bit, and then around 1am decided to call it quits. Billy got in Cal's bed, and I got in mine.

BILLY: Nite Jeremy.
ME: Nite Billy.
BILLY: Hey Jeremy?
ME: Yeah?
BILLY: I'm really sorry about...everything.
ME: You don't have--
BILLY: Yeah, I do, and I am...sorry.
ME: Okay.

Quiet. I kept breathing...in and out...in and out...and finally--

ME: I think I'm still in love with you.

And I waited.
And I waited.
And I waited.

Then I realized...he was asleep.

ME: So...yeah.

That's got to be some kind of a sign, right?